08/21/2025 - A New Path

It's been a while since I've actually dedicated myself to learning anything new. Today is a new day. I've always wanted to host a website like this, but lacked the skills to set it all up. If someone is reading this, don't expect it to be updated frequently. The home page shows the last time I gave this some attention, so if any freak is up for reading some loner's ramblings, pay attention there.

My initial impressions are that HTML is unnecessarily heavy on its tags. Sure, this is how webpages have been made for decades, but what puzzles me is why hasn't anyone made a simpler markup language that is easier to write and read?

The holy triad, HTML, CSS and JavaScript, have been there since God knows how long. But do they truly deserve their places? Someone probably thought the exact same thing, and that's why we have a trillion different frameworks, languages and weird acronyms coming out each year.

Take a look at this fancy number that doubles whenever you click the button:

Neat, right? Easier than one would think, but coming from a C background this is so freaking weird. Might as well start a C guide here too. Now check this button that will pick one out of 370,105 words:

"This, too, shall pass.", they said. "What goes around comes around.", they said. Still, life is shit.

Big hey to my girl L., she's been supporting me and tolerating me through all my shit. I hope I can give her a better life.

08/29/2025 - A friendly visit

A big shout out to my friend River who decided to visit me today.

08/30/2025 - Another friendly visit

Added a kitten to embellish the page. I might add something else later.

09/04/2025 - Not much to say

As the entry's title lays clear, there's not much to be said. I've been planning on writing a small introduction to the C programming language. Nowhere near as comprehensive as K&R's Bible or some good C reference, but still helpful to those starting to learn it.

I'm also wondering whether new entries should appear at the top rather than the bottom of the page. Might change that later while there are only a couple of entries.

This is actually way more fun than I thought it'd be. Web development always sounded like ass to me, but now that I've actually given it somewhat of a try, it isn't that bad.

It's been a while since I added anything interactive to this website. Screw cats and buttons, I'll think of something.

Might as well start the goddamn introduction to the C language alredy. Feel free to check it out.

09/09/2025 - Still not much to say, but now I'm not so sure where my life is going

Didn't have much time to update this since the last entry. The C introduction is poorly written, but I don't mind since it's just meant as an exercise to me. People got far better resources to learn a programming language other than reading some random fucker's personal ramblings.

I've been thinking a lot about my life and where I'm doing with it. I'm not sure I'll be able to pay the bills this month, or the next one, or the one after that. Work's been as unstable as always, but that doesn't surprise me.

Not to mention the unstable relationship I have. I mean, it's got its ups and downs like everything in life. I'm afraid I'm not giving her the life she deserves.

That's it. There's always another exit.

09/10/2025 - Bababadalgharaghtakamminarronnkonnbronntonnerronntuonnthunntrovarrhounawnskawntoohoohoordenenthurnuk!

Got interested in a linguistics projects. More on that later, or not.

09/16/2025 - Void

Just broke up. Haven't felt this shitty in a couple of years, maybe I've never experienced anything this shitty.

S****** is back on the menu, but I lack the money for it. Might as well sell everything to put an end to all this. I honestly cannot and will not take this anymore. It's been hell for me.

I've lost interest in things I loved to do. I've lost interest in all food, I've lost all interest in everything. I'm fucking devastated, in shambles, crushed to the soul. Worse of all, I caused it all.

I have this Christian friend that says that hell is pure guilt. Guilt. Hell is guilt and I'm drowning in guilt.

Perhaps I could have done it differently, perhaps not. Perhaps this was the way it should all happen. Maybe we weren't meant for each other anyway.

But I could SWEAR she was the one. What she did in unforgivable, and there was no more love or respect in our relationship.

I wonder who's the responsible for this. But knowing it wouldn't change absolutely anything anyway, so... Playing the blame game is losing time.

That's it. This might be my last entry. If I don't update this, I'm either dead or homeless, so...

I wish I was never fucking born.

09/21/2025 - You.

Today I remembered of your perfume. Today I remembered of the way you walk. Today I remembered the way you speak. Today I collected exactly 12 hairs of yours from the bathroom. Today I looked at the hairbrush you forgot here. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your eyes. Today I remembered of your voice. Today I remembered of your favourite songs. Today I remembered your favourite food. Today I remembered your favourite color. Today I remembered your favourite movie. Today I remembered the day I asked you to be by my side. Today I remembered the first time your lips said "I love you" to me. Today I remembered of your hair. Today I remembered of your hands. Today I remembered of your favourite place to eat. Today I remembered how much I loved you. Today I remembered your touch on my face. Today I remembered your kiss. Today I remembered loving you.

Over and over I keep going over the world we knew.

It hurts as hell. It hurts more than anything has ever hurt me.

11/16/2025 - Good news?

Haven't updated this in a while, as you can tell. Well, news are we're back together again, but physically distant, which is frankly depressing. At least we're together, even though not physically.

And we have \(\LaTeX\) support! (hopefully it's working). Not that fitting for the overall aesthetics, but I love it. Now I can write stuff like: $$\frac{d}{dx}f(x)=\lim_{\Delta x\to0}\frac{f(x+\Delta x)-f(x)}{\Delta x}$$

Other than that, things have been pretty much the same. I'm worried about my financial stability, trying not to get addicted to benzodiazepines, amphetamines and all sorts of medication, struggling with alcohol addiction (even though I'm not drinking all the time). As a good fellow would say; It is what it is.